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Hey everyone... I owe you all an apology for deleting so many journal entries as of late, and not being nearly as active. My social anxiety has recently picked up again - after nearly defeating it. I'm probably going to be a tiny bit more private about my life from here on out, hope you guys don't mind. We can still talk about anything - but  don't be surprised if all of the sudden, I end up not replying to your comment. I promise you, I am not angry nor bitter at you. Just a bit overwhelmed. I'm really struggling to reply to certain comments. For most, sometimes it takes more than one day - and this is due to fatigue and stress as well, as my stress level is constantly through the roof.

I probably won't do an FAQ just yet. But I'm not going to give up making one - some of the questions were a bit too much on the personal side for me, even though I welcomed it, because I was an open book. I can still answer questions (and I'm still welcome to a lot of things), but I've learned that sometimes I really CAN'T answer super sensitive questions, without the consequence of feeling overwhelmed. 

Even so, the time is not now. I need to wait. But with every setback, comes a true victory. I see all of my setbacks, as challenges to better my physical and mental health. :heart: 

I love you all. Have a great night, and I'll talk more with you soon! :heart:

~ Vivienne Waltzer

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Obelis Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Do as it's best for you. :hug: We're all here for you.
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: Thank you so much for your support :heart: It truly means a lot. :)

I just need to improve my self-confidence, I think. So I will avoid deleting anymore journal entries - even if they get no feedback, or if I feel they are written very strangely. ><
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The-Almighty-Muffin Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:tighthug: I hope that your situation improves, and I don't want you to feel uncomfortable about answering things.
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The-Almighty-Muffin Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Well I hope that your stress levels can improve. Mine will probably go higher than before, now, since I'm going to have a hectic school schedule, but I hope that you'll feel better than you did. :huggle:
I hope you feel happier in the coming times.
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm already beginning to relax a bit after taking some herbal baths - truthfully, it's probably my self confidence that's been bugging me. It's been said that if you constantly censor yourself and the things you are passionate about - you can potentially ruin your self confidence. I've also been exposed to a lot of new experiences, and I've gotta make a decision for how far I want to explore it. It all gets very overwhelming - but if I follow my gut, I will be okay. 

The way I see it - I am a born leader, not a follower. Despite everything I deal with - all of the things that people have called me - all of the labels I've been given - I am more than just what people say I am. I know what I need to do - and I know how I need to get it done. I know it's going to be hard, and difficult - and  crazy. But I have to do it, even if it's scary. 
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Just do whatever makes you comfortable, don't feel you have to give away more than you want :glomp:
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:tighthug: I appreciate it as always :heart: Sometimes it's natural of me to give away more than necessary, and then regret it later ^^; It's like: I get so excited, and think I'm actually going to get respect for what I write -  and then I post something - and all of the sudden, it's like: what have I done, I sound like a moron, a fool - nobody loves me.  I guess I am going to get no respect - sort of attitude. Then I delete it. Every time. I am so sick of this cycle ><
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! And don't worry, I went through a long period of doing the exact same thing (still do it occasionally) and now I've just learned not to post stuff XD
But it's definitely not true, you don't sound like a moron and people do love you :huggle: The cycle won't last forever!
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:tighthug: I am really glad you can relate. I honestly thought nobody could. I am always so self-critical of myself, and I am trying super hard to find myself, so I can appreciate who I am, and have a positive attitude like I used to. A lot of really weird things have been going on with me lately - I can't  even begin to explain half of them without wanting to bawl. 
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're definitely not the only one :tighthug:
Ah well I for one think you're an amazing person who can definitely appreciate themselves :huggle:
And ah it's okay :) I'm sure things will sort themselves out soon!
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad :tighthug:

Thank you :heart: I truly appreciate it. Sometimes I get a little overwhelmed... just a little. I work a high-stress job, let alone I'm having to sort out a lot of  confusing feelings about a very unusual event, which I'm coming to terms with. My anxiety levels suffer as a result. 
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome :tighthug:
It's totally okay to be overwhelmed sometimes, it happens, but it'll pass :) I really hope you can wrap your head around the event soon, I'm sure you will! ^^
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:tighthug: I'm slowly going back to my less overwhelmed state. I will probably find more self confidence once I get back to school :huggle: I've figured it out - therapy definitely does good for me.
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